control and restraint….

now that is a loaded tittle… some of you may have figured out that I have a very twisted mind and set of desires…. if not just look at the account that i follow on twitter   my list of fetishes is quite long but that is for an other post. Some of you may call me a dominant, and I am but what most of you don’t see is that i’m a sadist.. and a emotionless one at that,.. which can be very dangerous if not controlled properly.. lexxi one commented that I was one slip away from a psychopathy… and that true… the intellectual curiosity of it all fascinates me..  seeing how people reaction, analyzing, dissecting it, reliving it in my mind is sometime more important then the act itself… this is what make me a voyeur and such a unique and good photograph (no i’m not modest at all) i see thing from a different angle…

Pain

i love it… i live with it constantly … I’ve posted that i has fibromyalgia well this leave me in a constant state of pain… even the rare time where there is no pain it’s painfull since it feels like sensory deprivation  … i also like seeing other feel pain ether inflicted by me or others…. love seeing how they react to it… how they cope with it… inflicting it upon a  willing and trusting partner is the ultimate rush could be as simple as biting a nipple or giving anal dry  to  chocking them to an inch of unconsciousness then letting go. over and over again….  now don’t confuse pain with misery/abuse/cruelty … that i cannot stand and will fight against (and have) it anyway i can… 

control/restrain

this is where you walk the razor edge… where the demon lurch behind the eyes liking/wanting to do something doesn’t mean doing it…. One must learn to recognize you want and desires as what they are controlling yourself and showing restrain …. which in itself feed your fetishes…… knowing how far to go with your partner to satisfy both are need without breaking the trust line… but slowly bending it to see how far it will go before braking.. or if it will move in one direction or an other…  this is where restrain come in imaging doing something is one thing … doing it is an other… As much as some of my partner would like it i never fully release myself… I’m proud to say I’ve never had one yell out RED. they’ve come close but never said it… 

Rules

if set myself rules and guideline…. 
  • i will not permanently harm someone unless i absolutely have to (and I’ve had to unfortunately)  ether physically or mentally…
  • will push but never shatter someone physically or mentally… again i like pain but i’m not cruel (most of the time)…
  • to each is own…. if someone is not into it… i will adapt… again restrain is pain and i like it 😉
  • karma is a bitch… and she and I have had a long standing relationship… 
  • Intentional nonconsensual is to be stopped at all time… will fight for that at any time  of day
  • I will guide (and infuance) to the dark side .. but never drag 
  • there are something that should remain fantasies, in your mind  and in the realm of voyeurism …  

to lead or to wait…

this is a matter of control … the act of leading play, pushing the boundaries  or letting partners catch up to the comfort level… this is a subject I suffer through / life with constantly I’m up for almost anything (I am a strait man after all 😉 ) and will jump in and do it… my partners are not I sometime seem alouf and indecisive during play especially in it involve more the 2.  there is away someone that is not at the same comfort level or they are just not into/comfortable with certain kind of play. I choice to let the go at there own pace or follow there lead. this can be frustrating and leave me unsatisfied but that is my choice… I’ve done it to many time and live to regret it.   Wen i decide to do something and get the OK I do it my way… which some don’t always like… but they have to decide do they want a leader/dominant or not…
hope i didn’t scare you to much….  remember Pain is an Illusion that must be embraced before it can be mastered….
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